Knowing what was coming
I took a run up
Put my head down
And hurtled through
The last few days
Like some athlete
Trying to sidestep grief

And yet here I am again
After four busy days
And nights of minimal sleep
Writing another poem to loss

The tears still came
And the dreams of course
You in your wedding dress
Looking radiant
Laid out in the funeral home

I miss you so much
And I’m so mad
At you too